I have felt like utter shit the past week, which I suppose is normal withdrawal from sugar, gluton, nicotine, all kinds of crap. MAN I miss my caffeine free Pepsi's :( A few times this week I thought that if I could just drink ONE Pepsi I wouldn't feel so weak, tired, nauseated, or listless. I've also been extremely extra anxious and my psychiatrist is being no help whatsoever. I am having full blown panic attacks, like- level 8's, and have been since Wednesday (so for the past 3 days) and my own psychiatrist says to "ride them out". His attitude scares me. "Ride it out" for me could very well translate into an ER visit once a week or more...panic attacks are just so, so very awful. I also have major brain-fog, but I've been told that's standard for the first two weeks of a low-carb diet.
Today I want to buy some of those keto-stix things to make sure I'm in ketosis. I need the visuals. I wonder where in the hell you get those.
Anyway, so yes, my 33rd birthday is coming up and I'm ... you know, not really feeling one way or the other about it. It's a birthday, it sounds like a nice age - I don't know why I'm so blasie about it. I only asked for two things (dropped hints in the form of sending links to my sons email which he has said he would pass on to the purchaser in the house...so I didn't [b]REALLY[/B] ask) :) Those two things were Kenneth Cole's Black cologne (for Her obviously) and a watch, a cheap Timex watch just like I had for the last 18 months but it died on me. Wonder if I can just get a battery - never even thought to check. Anyway, so we're talking what - sixty bucks if said purchaser would shop on ebay.
Huh, imagine that - you CAN take the back off of a Timex and it even says the name of the battery on the case. Cool. (I hate being without my watch.)
So, that's where I am....it's saturday morning, I'm up early for some unknown reason, hoping I can get my hair cut today without panicking and hpoing that it turns out okay, and feeling pretty good about losing 7 pounds in five days (today I count as the sixth weighing day but not the 6th day of the diet, gotta get through it first before I can call it that LOL.)
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