I'm a Gap Junkie

I can't stop buying clothing for my son from Gap. I think ... no, I know it stems from having grown up, all through school, as one of THE worst dressed kids at my school, and not by my own choice, that's for damn sure. It was embarrassing to wear old ugly patched clothing that my sister had worn the year before, or even the year before that.

I know that's not good. I know recycling is good. But, is recycling clothing that's made really terribly good? Why not spend the extra money, and buy it a liiiitle on the big side, and then my son can wear it a long time. Next year I'll sell it on eBay - so there, I'm recycling in my own way. Right?

Anyway, I didn't work on school admission at all today, and I didn't apply for that job I really want either. The closing date on it is the 29th of September, so I'm postponing. I'm thinking about it a lot, though. I don't want to rush into it unprepared and write a lame-ass resume and cover letter. I've worked for people like this before and they read through bullshit insanely quickly. No shortcuts allowed in this situation.

K. One more cigarette and then I'm going to bed. I shouldn't have had coffee tonight - I guess I'd be sleepier. It's going to be impossible to get AJ up and out of the house at 6 AM - it's 10:20 now and he's watching Speed Racer (which wasn't my idea.)

My husband is too stressed, and too busy, and has too many things to do to help me think about how to do a project for the Obama campaign, so I guess I'm on my own there, too. Just like with school, work, emotions, ... everything. Feeling a lot like I'm a bother lately, and very much on my own with most things.

No - I don't clean the house, don't cook dinner - I'm hella tired, emotionally and physically, and there's other stuff...but I don't think I should have to go solo on everything. He's even said that he can't be my support person at this point because he's got nothing left to give. (Referring to my anxiety disorder.) He does do his best, but his best is at the point where he doesn't have anything left to give anyone except Perkins Coie.

Life is sucking hard lately.

At least I'm talking to my sister again. I've missed her.

And the bitch/rant session ends.

Go Obama. Please, if people are so stupid to support McCain then they might believe this - "McCain WANTS you to vote for Obama. He really does. He even asked God about it."

Nothing to Say

Enrolling in school. The paperwork sucks. Maybe completing all of that is part of a secret exam of being accepted.

I'm so fucking bored.

There's nothing new on the political front.

I can't find anything on the web to interest me, and I don't even want to play Warcraft.

Oh, but I did find a job to apply for that's only 1.5 miles --- 5 whole minutes from my house.

We'll see how that goes.