Okay, so is there always ONE psychotic bitch in every department of every business in every locale of the planet??? She's out to get everyone, and today it was my turn. The fucking bitch made me cry - she was SO callous, so condescending! I was so shocked that someone would have the nerve to talk to a coworker like that. It was so unprofessional, and ... it really hurt my feelings. So, I immediately went out to smoke a cigarette and fortunately the girl (20 years old, and very nice) followed me and gave me a pep talk. I still don't know what to do, but it was nice to hear from her that I was doing a great job, and that this evil bitch really does hate everyone. I was also warned that she will try to sabotage me - FOR REAL!! What the FUCK is that shit? What is this? Junior High???
Ugh.
So, anyway, on a lighter note I went to a dance club/bar/casino on Saturday night and had a total fucking blast. I even had 1/2 of a drink and got totally fucked up on it. I didn't dance, and I didn't win any money, but I did - I had so much fun it was ridiculous. I want to go every weekend forever!!!
My sister will be here in less than a month, but I don't know if I can take any days off of work considering that the first 90 days is SO important. I've not heard of anyone who's had a good 90 day review because of bitch-lady aforementioned. Wench. I really, really wanted to take the day before and of my birthday off so I could see my sister as much as humanly possible, but now I don't know what's going to happen. Well, no matter what I'll at least finally - after 2 1/2 years - get to see her.
I'm so emotionally exhausted from dealing with my psychiatrist about the xanax issue. I no longer want to stop taking it - my goal has changed. Now I just want to make it through the day without freaking out. I ran out of xanax early and had to call Dr. Asshole/Psychiatrist, and he was a snot to me on the phone saying that I should never ever take xanax unless it's my regular dose time. Uhmmm...nooooo. God he was a prick. He gave me 12 tablets to get through until I see him on Friday...asshole. I'll be finding a new psychiatrist immediately, of course. THe problem is that I have to face him and talk to him and acquiesce just so he'll refill the goddamn prescription. AAaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgh.
I am so fucking frustrated with EVERYTHING.
AND I got a big-ass cut on my hand today, smacked my elbow HARD, and wore uncomfortable shoes. :(
Tomorrow's gotta be better. GOT TO BE.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Friday, September 07, 2007
Last Day on the Job - Start Anew Monday
Being in my new office is really cool, except that I don't know what I actually need in it yet. It's still got stuff from the last resident in it - and stuff from other people, so really - I have no clue what's mine to deal with or move. And the jerks took my printer, so I won't get one until Monday'ish. Ugh.
I spent all of the last three days training new guy how to do my job, and he still doesn't know. It's frustrating. He seriously did not take ONE single note. Nothing. I know he's not going to work out for decaf-boss...ooh, I mean decaf-ex-boss!
I'll spend most of next week in training meetings, which is cool. Not much thinking, and not much work, but full pay. (Major thumbs up.)
Going fishing this weekend and hoping to catch some salmon.
Boring blog post. I know.
I spent all of the last three days training new guy how to do my job, and he still doesn't know. It's frustrating. He seriously did not take ONE single note. Nothing. I know he's not going to work out for decaf-boss...ooh, I mean decaf-ex-boss!
I'll spend most of next week in training meetings, which is cool. Not much thinking, and not much work, but full pay. (Major thumbs up.)
Going fishing this weekend and hoping to catch some salmon.
Boring blog post. I know.
Monday, September 03, 2007
September And Time To Update
Okay, so I have no real clue when I last updated my blog.
My cat, pictured in the post below, was hit by a car last month -that sucks. I really loved her a lot. She was a wonderful cat.
Okay, so work...I've been at my job for almost 14 months now. My boss was getting really pissy with me one day and so I applied for a department assistant position in the Trademark Department - and got it! I really impressed everyone that I talked to, and they kept my pay the same - but I get 15 PTO days, and 9 or 10 holidays paid a year. How awesome. Oh, and free benefits, which is excellent! :) In effect, it's like a $520/mo raise. I start on September 10th. No more freelancer for me - I'm a full-fledged employee! WOOT!!!
I'm going to miss Pam and Candace, but I'm sure I'll still talk to them every day. I don't know what Pam's going to do - but I think she's ready to start looking for a full time position at this point, too. (She's on jury duty this week, though, so that sucks for her...see, she won't get paid for that because she's a freelancer. So not fair.)
Diet-wise...yeah, not going great. I was doing great for a whole month and then we had our company picnic, so I cheated all that day - which led to my going off the diet. I wasn't losing weight anyway, which really pissed me off. All that work and like, nothing!?! I'm still walking A LOT, though, so at least I'm keeping steady'ish at the weight I am now...it doesn't help that Lexapro is adding a pound or so a month. I hate that. I want off of it. Grrrr.
Grande lives with me again...he has since four months after he left, so that's - what - April? Yeah, I guess he's been back for five months or so. He had a job cleaning ultrasound equipment, but quit that last week because the guy cut his pay two dollars an hour and it was only 12 hours a week. Hopefully he'll find something soon. He also bought a car. (Now he just needs a license and a job, so he can pay for the insurance and gas.) He's doing okay. Well, other than him passing out all the time. He says it happens once or twice a week. We took him to the doctor on Thursday. He seemed in perfect shape...his blood pressure was low'ish, but not too low (but he was nervous so it may have been artificially elevated.) His EKG was perfect, too. The doctor ordered a heart monitor called King of Hearts that he'll wear for three weeks - he's supposed to press a button when he passes out. I just don't know how I'll get him to wear it. And - no, this passing out has NEVER happened in my presence OR Tall's presence. I am really concerned about it. :(
I hate when my babies aren't feeling 100%. :(
Hmmm...ex-husband got married to a 24-year-old lesbian. She's in Iraq at the moment. The kids really like her, though - she seems nice enough from what I've heard. It's really sad to marry a guy when you're a lesbian, though - I mean, talk about living a lie...how do you ever get out of that??? Sad. Of course, I've wondered about Rich's sexual orientation for almost 20 years so who the hell knows.
Venti and I are doing well, though...neither of us are gay LOL - so there's that! :) We had a wonderful 5th Wedding Anniversary. We stayed at a hotel and casino, and just basically did what you'd expect, and had a great time doing it. I do love that man. Mmmm...
Let's see, what else...I'm working my way off of my meds for my panic attacks. I'm 1/2 way there almost. It's been VERY difficult. I'm still not driving, but trying - also very difficult. I'm still seeing the same psychologist, but not doing my homework, so it's my fault that I'm not further along - certainly not his.
My sister and her husband are coming to visit me in October - that will be incredibly awesome. :) I can't wait - only six weeks away, and she's already bought the tickets! I wish my mom would have agreed to come with, though. I really miss her, too!
Shit, I'm supposed to be in bed. I hate the commute still. Ugh. I'm still really torn about whether or not to move to the Seattle side. We've recently become "into" fishing for salmon - and it's so convenient to just drive for 1/2 hour and be at a nice beach ... in three weekends we haven't actually caught anything, but I know our luck will change :)
We went to a Labor Day picnic last night with Venti's friend (and mine) J-Decaf. We had a really good time, but left after 2 hours. I'd love to live in a neighborhood where there were block parties...it must be so nice to have neighbors who aren't total assholes. Or ... well, just neighbors.
Okay, off to bed for me. I dyed my hair "cherry bomb" (brownish pinkish reddish) and then put lighter streaks in it. It looks really cool, I think, but I always get nervous about going to work the day after I do something dramatic with my hair.
My cat, pictured in the post below, was hit by a car last month -that sucks. I really loved her a lot. She was a wonderful cat.
Okay, so work...I've been at my job for almost 14 months now. My boss was getting really pissy with me one day and so I applied for a department assistant position in the Trademark Department - and got it! I really impressed everyone that I talked to, and they kept my pay the same - but I get 15 PTO days, and 9 or 10 holidays paid a year. How awesome. Oh, and free benefits, which is excellent! :) In effect, it's like a $520/mo raise. I start on September 10th. No more freelancer for me - I'm a full-fledged employee! WOOT!!!
I'm going to miss Pam and Candace, but I'm sure I'll still talk to them every day. I don't know what Pam's going to do - but I think she's ready to start looking for a full time position at this point, too. (She's on jury duty this week, though, so that sucks for her...see, she won't get paid for that because she's a freelancer. So not fair.)
Diet-wise...yeah, not going great. I was doing great for a whole month and then we had our company picnic, so I cheated all that day - which led to my going off the diet. I wasn't losing weight anyway, which really pissed me off. All that work and like, nothing!?! I'm still walking A LOT, though, so at least I'm keeping steady'ish at the weight I am now...it doesn't help that Lexapro is adding a pound or so a month. I hate that. I want off of it. Grrrr.
Grande lives with me again...he has since four months after he left, so that's - what - April? Yeah, I guess he's been back for five months or so. He had a job cleaning ultrasound equipment, but quit that last week because the guy cut his pay two dollars an hour and it was only 12 hours a week. Hopefully he'll find something soon. He also bought a car. (Now he just needs a license and a job, so he can pay for the insurance and gas.) He's doing okay. Well, other than him passing out all the time. He says it happens once or twice a week. We took him to the doctor on Thursday. He seemed in perfect shape...his blood pressure was low'ish, but not too low (but he was nervous so it may have been artificially elevated.) His EKG was perfect, too. The doctor ordered a heart monitor called King of Hearts that he'll wear for three weeks - he's supposed to press a button when he passes out. I just don't know how I'll get him to wear it. And - no, this passing out has NEVER happened in my presence OR Tall's presence. I am really concerned about it. :(
I hate when my babies aren't feeling 100%. :(
Hmmm...ex-husband got married to a 24-year-old lesbian. She's in Iraq at the moment. The kids really like her, though - she seems nice enough from what I've heard. It's really sad to marry a guy when you're a lesbian, though - I mean, talk about living a lie...how do you ever get out of that??? Sad. Of course, I've wondered about Rich's sexual orientation for almost 20 years so who the hell knows.
Venti and I are doing well, though...neither of us are gay LOL - so there's that! :) We had a wonderful 5th Wedding Anniversary. We stayed at a hotel and casino, and just basically did what you'd expect, and had a great time doing it. I do love that man. Mmmm...
Let's see, what else...I'm working my way off of my meds for my panic attacks. I'm 1/2 way there almost. It's been VERY difficult. I'm still not driving, but trying - also very difficult. I'm still seeing the same psychologist, but not doing my homework, so it's my fault that I'm not further along - certainly not his.
My sister and her husband are coming to visit me in October - that will be incredibly awesome. :) I can't wait - only six weeks away, and she's already bought the tickets! I wish my mom would have agreed to come with, though. I really miss her, too!
Shit, I'm supposed to be in bed. I hate the commute still. Ugh. I'm still really torn about whether or not to move to the Seattle side. We've recently become "into" fishing for salmon - and it's so convenient to just drive for 1/2 hour and be at a nice beach ... in three weekends we haven't actually caught anything, but I know our luck will change :)
We went to a Labor Day picnic last night with Venti's friend (and mine) J-Decaf. We had a really good time, but left after 2 hours. I'd love to live in a neighborhood where there were block parties...it must be so nice to have neighbors who aren't total assholes. Or ... well, just neighbors.
Okay, off to bed for me. I dyed my hair "cherry bomb" (brownish pinkish reddish) and then put lighter streaks in it. It looks really cool, I think, but I always get nervous about going to work the day after I do something dramatic with my hair.
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